How good are you at waiting for what you really want?

 Note: This is a little short, and I would like advice on what I could expand on / add to it.

    There aren't many things that I want so badly that I cannot wait. I used to be so good at waiting months until Christmas or another special occasion to ask for whatever I wanted that year, but recently I’ve become worse at waiting, especially for the little things.

When I was about eight I worked for around two hours cleaning every little crevice of the living room in order to earn ten dollars. I can’t remember what I wanted to do with that money, but I do remember that ten dollars was a lot of money. Another time I spent half an hour every day all summer working on a math-workbook. My reward was fifteen dollars worth of Wizard 101 credits. 

It’s not that I’ve become more inpatient as I’ve grown older, but twenty-odd dollars is just no longer the big deal it used to be. Purchases only a dollar or two changed from small to nothing probably to my own detriment. When I walk towards the County Market on Fourth and Springfield, it’s become almost tradition for me to buy one of the $1.30 Arnold Palmer Arizona Iced Teas (I can never find somewhere which has them for the advertised 99 cents anymore). My little tradition is an irresponsible use of both my money and health but I keep doing it regardless. 

Many of the things that I want fall under the category of too small to wait because if I wait then I’ll no longer want them. I’d like to at least pretend to think that I haven’t lost all my patience just yet. I still am generally patient for things I want, but what I want is no longer a Lego set (although I would still kill for the big thousand+ piece star wars ones). At this point in my life college admissions seems to be the most important thing to me. I can’t write down stuff like that on a Christmas wish list, instead it requires the work to be done by myself. I am procrastinating on working on my college apps and whatnot, which some could interpret as being patient. 

I knew the day weeks in advance I would receive my standardized testing scores back and when that day did eventually come I didn’t check my scores until right before I was about to fall asleep. I plan on doing the same thing when college application season ends, because as much as I want good news I’m willing to wait due to my fear of bad news. I don’t want my mood for that day to be decided as soon as I receive an email, and I think that it is for the best that I’m able to control myself and have a little patience when waiting.